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♥ Thursday, October 09, 2008

many things had happened for the past 1 week or so.. made a serious medication error, adding on that the pt had had a renal impairment which means the 'toxic' couldn't be get rid from her body fast like us.. ='( felt so so guilty that i don't dare to face her mother, her only family member related closest to her.. can't say much other than sorry though i know it's of not much use (can't turn back time u know).. the ending is, the patient died in the end.. not related to the medication error though, but it builds up or speed up the course of death i guess.. learnt my lesson, it's harsh enough for me to bear, learnt, reprimand myself, yet it can't turn back time.. it just happened so unknowingly.. WOW! i typically cried with the mama.. i felt so helpless when i know she started gasping for air.. DDIL/MCM status, yet cant do anything much.. Sister was there guiding me, but i just feel that everything is so helpless.. she took care of her only child for 43years, for the past 25 years alone cause her husband 'ran away'.. great mom.. and when Dr Goh told her to spend her last moment with her daughter and praise that she's a wonderful mom, taking care of her daughter very well, tears welled up in my eyes.. so emotional.. she's with her throughout her dying stage.. R.I.P. now i don't even have the guts to go and attend her funeral.. lousy me..

hopefully this incident really does knock me up.. it does! harsh punishment.. harsh enough for me to learn.. really.....

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