♥ Wednesday, August 27, 2008
i'm so bored that i started to use the net and log in to my facebook account and started adding friends.. started to look through other people's photos and realize, i've actually known quite a few number of doctors juz that i'm so insignificant.. okay, only significant to those doctors who got bullied by me.. oh man! and there's these 2 student doctors coming up to me and exclaim that, "xiao de, you can't bully me cos i'll not be around next week, friday is my last day".. wahaha! ya, i can't bully you, but i can start bullying other doctors!! -.-"
i'm so unsure of myself.. i can laugh and joke around in such a stressful environment, yet during moments when i'm alone, thoughts running through my mind, my future seems so vague, blurry, dim light.. got shouted by a patient right on the face.. yes! on my face!! and i can feel that my ear durms are so stressed and vibrating like mad! yet, i can stand still, waiting for his shouts to end.. i think i'm trying to act cool.. haa! but yea, don't expect me to shout back coz i'm not those kind of peoplewho'll yell back at someone weaker than me..
bye!
Labels: working life
Blogged @ 9:31 PM
♥ Wednesday, August 20, 2008
yesterday went for some
useful useless talk about Trendcare.. obviously i'm so ignorance about it.. and what makes me happy and enjoyable was, me and Veronica was chatting non-stop from the start (at 9am) till it ends (at 11.10am) with sweets that Nurizah bought in my mouth all day long.. knowing that we have ample time, headed down to NUS 'mega bites' and have some
expensive cheap, yet
lousy delicious and fulfilling foods! wonder when was the last time we get to sit down, chat, eat slowly yet happily...... working life just isn't great big time!
think back, why didn't i just put down my pride, my work, my unhappiness and leave?? thinking that if i pass my probation, things would
definitely indefinitely get better? actually i'm just giving a test to myself on whether i'm capable in this job not.. why must i be so stubborn/stupid and stayed on? when most people around me including my boyfriend's parents are
booing cheering me on to quit.. and even will help me tell some high posts people that this girl wants to quit, please tell her ward sister!
actually, i like working in ward if i want to continue in this line.. it really pushes you to
to fall learn and stand on your own.. and get bullied most of the time! just that the ward colleagues urks me! except for that
many few people.. isn't it pathetic that in a ward, that
workes like a team, yet no one or
few ones that you can trust/confide in?! nah, don't confide in anyone.. my NS man + family are the only ones i can rely on, and at times confide in.. but he's not always around for me to vent my unhappiness..waiting eagerly for tomorrow to come.. NS man is back from his
relaxing tiring field camp and i'm on 2nd night tomorrow.. yippee!! i want him to hug me and me to hug him tight! love his
fatty muscular body build now.. ^.^
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♥ Tuesday, August 12, 2008
working night alone ruling 16 patients.. admitting 3 patients on my 1st night and i simply love it cos they came early and i can finish doing my changes on time.. *muackz* 2nd night admitted 2 patients.. kept eating and drinking during night shift just to keep myself awake.. love doing night alone =)
Baobei won't be coming out from Tekong this weekend, field camp..ohhhh! *agony* looking forward for the coming week cos i'm having straight 3 days off! and Baobei is out for 4days! wahaha! ^.^ *muackz*
i miss cheerleading! read one of my cheermates blog, and he loaded a video of how he did a single base on me.. the impression is WOW! but the feeling is no longer there.. 0.0 miss cheermates even more.. maybe they've forgotten me le.. heh..
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